Poetry and Prose, Susans Soul, Susans Soul Thoughts

Multiplicity And My Writing

I’ve been taking a class from DailyOM named Healing Your Soul with Writing. It is in many ways “Soul Work” designed to remember, research what you have wind your conciousmind with cause and effect.Below is an entry from my second lesson on mid-November.

“Revelation

Nov 9, 2017 10:36 PM Inner Revelation I just read an amazing article/teaching from OM. The class is Healing Through Writing. It began with a quote, ” You must carry a chaos inside you to give birth to a dancing star. – Nietzsche” then quoted the writer of Man’s Search for Meaning, Viktor Frankl, “That which is to give Light must endure burning.” The article then discussed Jung’s theory of inner conflict of good and evil within all of us and with each conflict after the battle a new self emerges (terrium quid) with some of both who were conflicted.

For me, living with DID, I had an “aha” moment about my alters. Each fought or lived the conflict until a more developed “me” was created until I have become “me today.” The problem is twofold in that (1) the alters didn’t reintegrate as I thought they had and (2)I’ve been manipulating myself and Jonathan by playing diversionary games to avoid listening and accepting each part of me as part of my journey on this path God is leading me…”

Now, I share my poetry written when I was struggling with my DID, Dissociative Identity Disorder several months ago.

Multiplicity

Confusion drips from my mind
as my heart breaks, yet again.
Where solace’s absence and
grief’s ever present tears fall.

Parts seen by others are whole,
but…I know…I know…the tr…
Soul divides as fractured glass
begins to break…begins to split.

Mind’s memories know pain, loss
as soul’s silent grief bursts forth
and parts of whole disintegrate.
Soul water overflows its banks.

Dam’s eruption precedes unknown
rushes of utter mindless       multiplicity.
Within, heart splinters with      feelings
of soul’s…anger…pain…sadness…loss.

Why did whole shatter into pieces?

Susans Soul
Remembrance of splitting and mind dissociation. © Susan Langer

confusion poems • sadness poems • pain poems • loss poems • anger poems